Winston Diary Part III

Chapter 1:
What is the time of day??? Where is Julia??? What will the guards do to me??? What is so terrible about room 101??? Why do I have all these questions? No one will answer me. No one here will comfort me. In this room -this windowless, light filled room, no one will tell me what is going on. All I see are prisoners. They are suffering, they are brain washed, and they are doomed. All of them are doomed. I am doomed too. No one is here to comfort me. I am scared to see what is going to happen to me. What if I am sent to room 101? I don't even know what that will mean. I don't know what will happen to me, but I know it's not good. Nothing is good in this place. Nothing is good in this place of no darkness.

Chapter 2:
I still do not know what time of day it is, for I have not been outside since I was arrested. The guards beat me, they starved me, they put me in a machine that seems to squeeze all my bones, muscles, and limbs until they break apart. I am in pain, but what hurts the most, is Julia. O'brien who is apart of the party, and has been apart of the party his whole life, told me that Julia has betrayed me. She is gone, and I feel as if there is no reason to live anymore. I don't care if I die. The party should just kill me as soon as my mind is pure.

Chapter 3:
I love Big Brother. 2+2=5. The party has power, and it knows what it is doing. O'Brien has taught me so much. In fact, it is as if he has made me a whole new person. I am healthy again, and I am happy once more. However, I still am in love with Julia. I want to know where she is, and I want her to be by my side. I miss her so much, for I am not complete without her in my life.

Chapter 4:
I had a dream about Julia, and some how she has ignited a flame in me. I have a brilliant idea. The party shall shoot me, and I shall die. The party shall shoot me, and I shall die loving Julia, and hating Big Brother. O'Brien came to my room after the brilliant idea accumulated in my head. He accused me of though crime, and questioned my feelings toward Big Brother. He asked me if I hated him, and I said yes. O'Brien is taking me to room 101.

Chapter 5:
O'Brien was right. Room 101 did hold the worst thing in the world. It hold fear, and for me, that is rats. He was going to place the creatures on my face. They would have eaten away at my eyes, my cheeks, and my tongue. I was scared, and I finally figured out what I needed to do. I told O'Brien to punish Julia. I told him to do anything to her, and set me free. He did, and I don't regret a thing. I just want to see Julia. Just one more time. I want to see Julia, for I still love her.

Chapter 6:
I love the party and I love Big Brother. I do not love Julia anymore. I have no feelings for her, and even though I could see her and meet up with her again, I don't want to. I don't feel a need to have her in my life anymore. Big Brother is the only person I need in my life. He was the one who ended war in a victory. He is the one who creates peace, harmony, and joy throughout Oceania. And he will always be the one that I will look to for guidance. I love the party, and I love Big Brother.